Aimless

I did literally have a mid-life crisis this week. I think I am still smack in the middle of it, and maybe it won't end until I do get that Camaro I have always wanted....Seriously. I had a Camaro poster on my wall in high school. Dork!!!! I could probably do a whole post on the posters that have decorated my walls over the years.

Okay, okay. It was not that kind of mid life crisis, but it was the kind where I spent a few days crying and very few days sleeping. I have this great life, and I am generally thrilled with most days. This week was just a little different- loss of control, trying to figure out the future, feeling external and internal pressure, etc... I was pretty much ready to book a flight to a resort in the Canary Islands and just bring my bike and a good novel.

Um. Yes, I need to harden up. Please disregard my whining and pretend I never really did cry earlier this week.

Today I volunteered at the 1st Annual Overton Park 10k Trail Run. Everyone ran off course because someone messed with the trail markings, and it was actually kind of funny. The range of distances for the winners was 4 miles to 7.5. So, basically everyone chose their own distance and time. Everyone was a winner. Gotta love it. Reminds you not to take races so seriously every single time. :)
Barely-showing-pregnant Joy came in to town and won a little gnome. I am not sure how far she ran, but she did report running one way down a trail and realizing the arrow was pointing the other way....

Later in the day, Alyson (in blue) and I made this awful plan to run a little past noon in the blazing sun. It is still hot down here. Bad mistake. I wasn't sweating. My stomach wouldn't take any more water. I had my first awful really awful run of the year.

And that is why it is hard not to take training seriously. If you don't give yourself the opportunity to succeed in workouts, you are wasting your time. (more to the point, I wasted my time today. Or maybe I just had to re-learn a lesson).

I think it would help to get create some goals again- with not just triathlon, but with all parts of life. I am not enjoying wandering aimlessly right now.