Good ol' Keith... :)
And that is okay because I am out there, finding the good in it all, and believing that when the time is right I will be back in the mix.
Speaking of the mix, I opted to NOT start in the elite wave and went to the time trial start at the back of the race. In the moment, I just didn't feel confident racing the other women. It is odd, because in the past I HATED being in the back and wanted to be where the race was. I would have always jumped in the wave start if invited. On this day, I just oddly did not care and did not want to trot down to the front. I surmise my head was lacking confidence, so I started in the back and made my race a solo time trial.
I also just kind of felt like an out of date, left on the shelf too long-mom. LOL! Not knocking us moms! But, I was one of the only women there without a disc, I didn't line up in the "elite" wave, etc, etc. And, I am starting to feel old around all of the young whipper snappers! I just felt a little awkward, and that is probably because I am so out of the loop these days and just making my way little by little back into the sport.
The swim was uneventful and longer than advertised, but I don't ever see a time when I get out of the water so I don't notice. I just know I had ZERO panic attacks and no alligator sightings.
I tried to work as hard as I could on the bike. It just doesn't feel like it used to feel. I think this is two-fold. As I have talked about before on the blog, my position has been funky for a while now (since a saddle change in 2012), and after several changes, it was going from bad to worse. I was encouraged to lower my seat, and I really felt it in my knees and back this race. (Fortunately, I just now got everything dialed in back to a helpful fit Nacho gave me with my seat a little higher, and I think I am finally right in my position). But secondly, I just.don't.ride.enough.period. Maybe 2 days a week and 3 if I am lucky? I hardly hit 75 miles a week? It is such a huge reduction from what I did for many years, that I am just not strong and fresh on the bike. There is room to grow, and I will keep trying to build as I am able.
The run was hot, but I am not complaining. It is Heatwave Tri...so come on! No complaints about hot races in the summer, peeps! It is what we do!!! My knees felt awful from the bike, and my first mile was so slow. I wondered if I had overbiked, although I only seem to be able to do that when fit. How do you overbike when your max is moderate? Lol! But I was thinking...uh oh. My legs feel like crap and they never feel this way. Is it possible that even that pace was too much for me? After a mile they felt better, though. (I have since had a couple of bricks where they felt like that, but now that my bike fit was adjusted slightly, that has gone away. I think I was really overloading my knees).
The little patch of shade on the course
First place AG Los Locos Peeps
I have oddly enough decided to put my name down for a fall marathon, and I am actually super excited about it. So, where does that leave me with tri racing? I am not sure. Maybe Mighty Mite. Maybe AG Nats if I can get a friends to go with me AND actually ride my bike more. And possibly Redman Tri....that looks like it could be a fun, new adventure. I am not done with the season yet, but I am still looking for those races that motivate me. I am trying to stoke the fire and really just build back that passion for racing, and I think that starts by finding ones that give me a reasonable challenge and adventure.
A big Heatwave Classic Tri thank you to Wattie Ink, Enell Bras, Blue Seventy, and ISM saddles for the best race gear as well as Powerbar and Herbalife for race course and post race nutrition. I am a lucky, lucky girl to have the best in these things that do make a difference. And thank you to my Los Locos teammates for the great company on race day.